This cannot be happening!

Hai..

We had our math's phase test 1 this morning. It was easy actually, but... I made a very stupid mistake. Not careless mistake as always.. but a very2 stupid mistake :'( What's wrong with me.. :'( Too much bad things going on lately  and I try so hard to be ok with it. but still... :(

God,,,, please :'(

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I just don't know what to do with my self

PEOPLE were created to be LOVED, while THINGS were created to be USED.. Ironically today, THINGS ARE BEING LOVED & PEOPLE ARE BEING USED.

You, hate everything about me, why do you love me?

"Relationship are like glass, sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together"


When many good things happen to you 3 days in a row, you better be aware that, something must be going on... sooner or later... 


well yeah... that's what happen to me now. I got good news for scoring the highest mark in 2 papers and 2nd highest mark in another 2 papers. I was also selected as an assistant to the assistant of the head of the student's council. I knew that something bad will comes after that! about 3 to 4 days ago, I was thinking about it. What if, 
WHAT IF, i have to go through the situation where I have to be strong ? for example, now? I was thinking that, its been a while I have never been betray by the person that I love and trust the most? I forget how to deal with it. The thing is that, now, its for real. Why? Because all this time, it was just a lie. Why am I saying this? because i just found out that, all these times, he never want me. I was a dork back then. His friends knew about it and I know for sure they are talking and laughing so hard about it! They were involved in it too, calling me names that they think I deserved!! Well, what do you all know??! What gave you all the right to judge me and point out who's wrong and who's right??!


Oh God... its so painful!! I just don't know what to do... THIS IS REAL!!!! THIS IS REAL!! THIS IS REAL!! and the question that keeps on bothering me is, why???! why did you lie? why did you hold on? why didn't you ever talk about it! and it hurts so much that you lied to me for almost 3 months!!! wow!!! you're the best liar! why are you doing this??? why didn't we just end this on the day that I said I'm over you??!!! what are you up to??


you are the only person that could hurt me the most and makes me feel so down... I'm so disappointed... really2 disappointed...


Thanks for the fake happiness you gave me.... 

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Do You Know That Karma Is a Bitch?

Hullo! :D 

I can't update me blog yesterday since the connection was bad again :s It's getting worst here for me -.-' The water is not clean :s Why is this happening? It's difficult for us to do the laundry :( 

Oh BTW, our exam will start early May! -.- Wish me luck!!! it's our big exam, this will determine whether we are qualified to move on to the second year or not :s Since the exam is around the corner, the pressure is getting strong. We are getting more busy than before with assignments, assessments and lab reports. Next 2 weeks will be our revision time. I hope I can concentrate on my study instead of fooling around and wasting time -.-

I'm not focus lately.Even now, when I'm suppose to be doing my MP's assignment which will be due next Monday!! !T____T I don't have any mood to do it. I can't force myself since my brain don't work that way :( Oh God, please help me to focus :( 

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All My Life I've Been Good, but Now, I'm Thinking WTH??!

15 min before the afternoon classes started.


I'm depressed and suffocate thinking about my current situation :'( 

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Oh, here is a link that I got from one of my favorite blog hehe :) It's about a photographer and his works.

When They Get What They Want, They Never Want It Again

Things are just getting stupid and ridiculous here! I don't get it why the peoples here are getting stupid and stupid. Is it because they just want the attention? OR ... they're just plain stupid? -.- It is annoying to see that they're trying so hard to be notice -.-  

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Only God Knows

1 more day before the school holiday end. :(


Its not really a holiday actually. I've spent most of my time doing research for my assignments and lab reports T__T It was so tiring!!! and stressful for sure!! Plus, I'm having serious personal problem right now :'( And I really don't know what to do about it :'( It is very painful... My heart is screaming and crying, but I try so hard not to let it out :'( God... please help me ;'(

Too Sad, So Sad, Its A Sad Sad Situation

Hello everyone :)

My though for today:

"Why do an idiot always get what they want so easily? While I, work so hard to get what I want, never success in getting it!! I feels like want to give up!! give up working hard and never been appreciate!!!!!"


I'm feeling so down and sad today :( The reason is that, my cousin told me to ask my father whether he wants to continue paying the monthly payment of his car for me :'( I was really hoping my daddy will say yes... :'( But mummy said, it would be a chaos. Since currently, dad is paying 2 cars! T___T I'm so sad!!!! Really2 sad!!! I'm not in the mood to study today, I just want to be on my bed and sleep!!! My heart ache!!! :'( Tucson is my dream car, apart from Sirion :'( I wish dad would change his mind!! T____T I really NEED IT NOT WANT IT!!!!!!! T______T 

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My current situation is very stressful!!! Even our allowance aren't out yet!! there is a rumor saying that the allowance will be out in APRIL???!!!! are you F**k**g KIDDING ME??!!!! I'm officially broke now! and I've borrowed large amount (for me) of $ from my parent already!!!! Why don't we switch places?? Do you know what its feel to go through for months without your salary??! Do you ever thinks of that???!