Make it, own it, live it

Other things that are not cool:
1. loving someone but you know when it will have to end and where the relation is going.
2. Having an awesome relationship but talking about future where there is no "us".


This is my situation now. No good isn't it? :( 


I love this guy, he makes me happy, he said he is happy with me. But, we are in an open relationship. He said forever is not possible cause of their people's tradition. Some people said, love is different, love is love. No, this one is not like that. I don't think so. Some people said I'm stupid for loving and wanting him, and still with him, although I know perfectly well, things won't change with time with us. But then, when I think again, maybe this is what I need, to feel that love does exist. To feel happiness.  Maybe right now, serious relationship is not what I want yet. Or maybe, God just want to test me before giving me the one. Maybe He want to see whether I can appreciate the small and short happiness. But I consider it as a big happiness though, he is a very nice guy and makes me happy although we have gone through many difficulty so far. I choose this, I made this decision. I know perfectly well, there is no us in the future.  


So yesterday, we were spending our time together. And we talked about loads of thing. Future is included. Although he didn't say it clearly that it is us, but he for me its crystal clear, one day we will both have to get married. But not us, should get married. There is no us :') 


I know when we will break up, and we both know the reason why. Maybe we still can have a long distance relationship, but what's the point of that? He is older than me, he has to get married in few years. But above all, I pray that we both will get happiness. How God planned for us. Although I do wish I can marry him someday, but then, I leave it all to God. All I can do now is, to appreciate what has been given, what I have and enjoy every moment I spend with him. Less than a year left, I'm hoping I could make him happy and will always remember me, us and all the things that we did and shared. Aamiin. 

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It doesn't have to be like this

When you're in love with someone and another person manage to steal your heart, its mean that you're not really in love with that someone. Cause if you do, you won't fall for other.

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I don't want our love feels like a battlefield

"We are suppose to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift"

- Unknown.

I got the quote from someone's profile. Dear God, I'm ready to meet the right one now. Aamiin. 

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I ask the sky

Hey again... Its been 4 months since my last update!! OMG! I even almost forgot my password HAHA.


 I've been so busy with all the school's stuff and making new friends at the same time to balance my life LOL. Its been so many up and down in the past 4 months but then... I think I'm still gonna be alright.  And thanks to all my friends for the support. Cause, without them, for sure I'm gonna be insane? LOL 


Wish me luck for the incoming months cause its gonna be a new month and a new life! :D 

Don't judge something from the outside

Good morning! :) 


Quote that I get for today is~~~ (drum roll) :p

‎"A relationship is like a pair of shoes. Buy the ones you’re mostly comfortable with, because if you buy the wrong ones just because they’re pretty to wear, you might end up having scars in your feet." - unknown. 

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Dear God, I love you :)

Don't waste your time looking back on what you've lost.. Move on, for life is not meant to be travelled backwards..

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Because it's not worth it!

Hello!


Its been exactly 2 months since my last post on this blog!!! Whew~ almost forgot about this blog. LOL. Sorry for that. 


Its been a busy day since the school started, but many things have change. There have been many up and down in the past 2 months. But thanks God, I still can survive though it was seriously crazy :/ GRRR!!!


BTW, before I forgot, its leap year!!! :D Today is 29th of February. Few peoples I know are celebrating their birthday today. One of them is my dear cousin, Jarel. Happy birthday mister! May God bless you~ :) and also happy birthday to my coursemate, Ka Sariah :D And thanks for the awesome treat!!! I really2 thankful for that :D 

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Hmmm.... actually I'm still feeling so tired now. For the past 2 days, I went straight to bed as soon as I reached home. And then few hours after that, force myself to wake up and stay awake for an hour or two :/ Feeling so so tired after donating my blood yesterday! HAHAHA It was my first time, and honestly, at first, I was so excited about it. But, when the time comes, I felt so so nervous and afraid!! Almost change my mind :p The finger's prick sting also~ and when they insert the needle to my vein, it was so so so painful!!! T____T OMG!! really hahaha :p Maybe it hurts because its my first time and I'm so nervous. After the donation, I feel so sleepy and fall asleep :p and the effect are till now hehehe I hope I will be okay soon, need to focus with my assignments :s 

BTW, yesterday and yesterday's yesterday~ our school had an open day. It was great and very exciting. Many varieties of food were sold LOL :p On the first day of the open day, my friend and I spend the whole day eating!!! LOL. We ate nasi lemak, shephard's pie, sushi, corn flake, guava and I can't recall what else LOL. But the next day, we're busy with the practical. My group made an essential oil which are extracted from the lemon's peel. We used 20 lemons and hope to get many oil as possible. And its still in progress now hehe. We continue the extraction whenever we have time. Our initial plan was to used green apple. However, since we're not sure how to extract the oil plus our budget were limited, so we use lemon instead since we've done it before. I really really want to try extracting oil from the green apple!! :/ 

Tomorrow is March, I hope good things will come :) And dear God, do answer my prayer! AMIN! :)