Make it, own it, live it

Other things that are not cool:
1. loving someone but you know when it will have to end and where the relation is going.
2. Having an awesome relationship but talking about future where there is no "us".


This is my situation now. No good isn't it? :( 


I love this guy, he makes me happy, he said he is happy with me. But, we are in an open relationship. He said forever is not possible cause of their people's tradition. Some people said, love is different, love is love. No, this one is not like that. I don't think so. Some people said I'm stupid for loving and wanting him, and still with him, although I know perfectly well, things won't change with time with us. But then, when I think again, maybe this is what I need, to feel that love does exist. To feel happiness.  Maybe right now, serious relationship is not what I want yet. Or maybe, God just want to test me before giving me the one. Maybe He want to see whether I can appreciate the small and short happiness. But I consider it as a big happiness though, he is a very nice guy and makes me happy although we have gone through many difficulty so far. I choose this, I made this decision. I know perfectly well, there is no us in the future.  


So yesterday, we were spending our time together. And we talked about loads of thing. Future is included. Although he didn't say it clearly that it is us, but he for me its crystal clear, one day we will both have to get married. But not us, should get married. There is no us :') 


I know when we will break up, and we both know the reason why. Maybe we still can have a long distance relationship, but what's the point of that? He is older than me, he has to get married in few years. But above all, I pray that we both will get happiness. How God planned for us. Although I do wish I can marry him someday, but then, I leave it all to God. All I can do now is, to appreciate what has been given, what I have and enjoy every moment I spend with him. Less than a year left, I'm hoping I could make him happy and will always remember me, us and all the things that we did and shared. Aamiin. 

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It's only a matter of time

Its past midnight already. I've spent approximately 5 hours doing research for my assignment, but, no progress ! :'( It's frustrating.. I don't sleep well because of it. I've tried my very best to do it, but... no luck :(

In the past 2 days, my course mate and I were busy making a banner or to be exact, 3 banners for our department's activities which will be held at the beach this Saturday. I hope it's gonna be fun! :) I'm so glad and relieve that almost all of them were excited and co operate in making the banner. From buying the things and planning what to be drawn and deciding color till finishing the 3 banners :D Congratulation everyone! Keep up the good teammate :)  and let's rock the beach on Saturday guys! :D 

BTW, today, when my sister and I was on our way home, our car nearly collide with a hilux. It was the man's fault. He was on our lane at the bend of the road which makes me take time to notice what was happening. Thanks God, all the 3 of us stepped on the brake on time. If not, I could not imagine what would happen :/ 

My pink hippo and pipo (small blue hippo) and my baby (green pillow) sitting at the back of the car on our way home LOL.



That's all for now. I'm looking forward to finish and pass up the assignments, have fun and holiday!! Weheee hehehe 

One day you will feel what I feel

5th July 2011


9:30pm


You know where


3 of us plus 4 of you. 

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Hibernate mode in 3, 2, 1 haha

- brunch, checked

- eat spaghetti, checked

- eat ice cream + cocktail, checked

-junk foods, checked

-soft drinks, checked

We cook spaghetti together for lunch and it was super fun :) They said we should do this again when we all are free. I agree!! :D I made the sauce and thanks God it turns out well! hehe they were happy with it :D 

ingredients :

- 1 packet of spaghetti noodles

- 3 packet of spaghetti sauce *sweet style*

- 1 big onion (chopped)

- 1 packet of sausages (chopped into thin slices)

- some salt

- and cooking oil of course :p 

Now.. we all kind of sleepy and got stomaches. I wonder whether our plan to cook mushroom's soup is still on or not haha.

BTW, technology is no good sometime. It makes us talk less and spend more time with lappy. I'm referring to us. Although we are sitting on the same table. We don't talk with each other directly! Instead, we post on each other's wall through facebook :p 

oh BTW, I made a research about preventing our picture from being grab by other people. I did found the website which offers help on how to do it. But... I failed :'( I followed the instructions but still... it's not working T__T I don't know why :'(

This is the website - > Prevent your photo from being grabbed

Snap! Snap! Snap! Let's Go Craayyyzeeee

Hello2~


I'm still at my girlfriend's place. Now we're complete!! :D my another girlfriend came early in the morning today and she'll stay till dinner :D love, love, love it :D

These are what we had for brunch!!! 

Soft drinks for brunch :s youngster nowadays... tsk..tsk..tsk :p

BTW, let me introduce u with me sweet lappy :D 

My other girlfriend who came early in the morning took this picture!! -.-

Here we are :D 

This is the time when we did a little shopping to complete the stock for our brunch and dinner. 

Our plan is to eat spag for lunch... but2 ... we're still full :s We also plan to have cocktail + ice cream for dinner T___T im suppose to diet LOL :p

Passion Is In The Risk

"Honey, you cannot learn from my mistakes, you're going to have to go out there and make your own. Now, you could get your heart broken or you could have the greatest love affair the world has ever known. But you're not going to know unless you try." - when in Rome, 2010. 

This is one of my favorite quote. :)

Hello2~ 

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I haven't update this blog for few days since I don't have internet connection at home :( My phone is not working anymore. I don't know what its problem T__T I wished I could get a new phone asap :s

BTW, I've got serious fever, yesterday, but now I am a bit ok already. Only the flu and cough left :( I guess its due to spending time till late at night with my cousins 2 days ago.

Ermm... my cousin said, mum told them that I won't be happy if I marry with my love in the future. Its because we are first cousin. I just hope that she's wrong. I pray to you God, please bless us and don't let what she said is right :'( I'm trying my very best to keep this relation. And i really hope my love would do the same too T__T

He's My Chef!! Numero Uno

  

Me love made dinner for me tonight. Thank you baby! :)

Although it looks more like breakfast :s hehe 

These pictures below was taken few weeks ago. We planned to cook honey chicken. I'm still not sure whether we do succeed or not btw :/ The egg was fried with sweet sauce. It taste much better compare to my honey chicken :'( My love always cook better than me! :(

Hello2~ :D 

I'm feeling so exhausted now and I'm feeling hungry! I still can't eat well due to the ulcer in my mouth!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH!! I think it's getting worst :s everything I eat or drink felt tasteless now. =.=' 

BTW, me, some of my course mate and also me love went out for lunch together. We ate at somewhere in Jerudong. The Nasi Katok there is so delicious!! (Y) :D 

I went home early today. There's nothing to do in the afternoon in school. Me love fetch me at the hostel and he allowed me to drive his car!! hooorayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! :D but me love was so fussy!!! he's just like me mother =.=' He keeps on complaining about the way I drive!! :s he looked so stress!! urgghhhhhhhh~ hahahaha :p

Let's Create Our Own World!

  I brought this for my younger brother, it cost me $15.

 These watch are couple set. Me love bought it for me :) Thanks love. :D

I bought this for me love's car. Now, his car does not looks dull anymore! Hooray~ :D take good care of it darling :D

This is us, playing guitar hero on PS! :p

Urmmmm..... what's else uh? I just can't stop posting =.=' I think it's better for me to go to sleep now and get some rest.

Night! :D